Thursday, July 21, 2011
I still love him, but does he still love me? And are my friends lying to me?
Me and my best friend started dating back in February '11, a week before Valentine's Day, we broke up two weeks after that. He says his mom didn't want us together, but people are telling me that's a lie. I cried so very hard because I loved him dearly. I still do, but we aren't as close as we use to be. I feel I am being a bit too clingy because I use to text him all he time, but nothing more than a simple "Hi." Most of the time he won't text back, unless he is bored. I love him and he is the only one who has seemed to make me happy in over 2 years. I dated with in those two years, but none of the relationships have turned out like the current one (with him). I feel like he is my soul mate, but my friends (mainly one that I figure likes him and who he likes, but won't date because she is a druggie and Satanist and he is a very good Christian boy) keep saying that he doesn't care for me and he is just wanting to use me to "get in my pants". He calls every now and again, mainly at ungodly hours (1-3am), sometimes waking me and he talks to me, asking what I am doing (even though sometimes he can tell I was sleeping). When I hear his voice, even when I am tired, I smile. Yet, when others call I tell them I will call them in the morning and hang up or don't pick up. I love him so much that it hurts and afraid to ask him if he still likes me....I have written letter, though ever sent them, a method suggested to me by my aunt that isn't helping, to try and help the feelings go away.. But then I cry. I am so afraid of rejection, because he doesn't interact with me around people, just when we are alone. He likes to flirt with my friends and well, it makes me jealous, but I leave before I can how it. I feel like some of what my friends say is true, but I can't help, but love him despite what they say. I pray to God to send me signs that he still loves me like he use to because I use to be the only one he had eyes for. He glances at me every now and again when we are with friends, but I always turn away shyly...What do you guys think? Help please? I am very heart broken, but I can't help the way I am around him, like a lost puppy. What should I do? :c
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